A Call to Adopt

There was never a definitive moment in our relationship where we sat down and discussed if we should adopt. We had the conversation most normal dating/engaged couples do. How many kids do you want to have? Seems that it always comes up in conversation. Our conversation was similar but went in the direction on  both sides that we would both like to have some and adopt some. It was never a question of IF but WHEN we would adopt.

Adoption is in both of our immediate families. It is a norm. Not a foreign idea. I say this because this 'norm' that is a part of our families has only recently stretched my mind to a place I have never known. (which i will go into more detail later)

'A Call to Adopt'
I never realized it was a call until October of 2012. At this time I had been off of birth control for 2.5 years. I am 28 days regular and always have been. I had counted days and had done all those funny things they tell you to do. I am now a firm believer that getting pregnant has nothing to do with our timing and our tricks and our calendars but everything to do with God's timing and God's calendar. I am still off of birth control and we fully leave everything in His hands.

I tread lightly with the words I am about to use. I do not want to cause offense, judgement or confusion. I will try and explain my feelings in a way that can be understood but sometimes trying to explain what your heart feels can be tough. This will be news to many and only a handful of people know this about me.

 I have never had a desire to be pregnant.

Now for me to explain. Please do not take this the wrong way. We are not adopting because I don't want to be pregnant. I am not fearful of being pregnant, the process, the side effects. I am not against being pregnant, I am all for receiving that blessing if and when that is God's plan. For the longest time i felt that something was wrong with me because of my lack of desire. This feeling of not having the desire that soooo many women have. I struggled every month like most women do trying to conceive. With that hope that those magic lines would show up on the pregnancy test every month. But I had mixed emotions...because on the other end of that the desire wasn't there. Talk about a roller coaster every month! You know what they say, once people adopt they usually get pregnant. Yeah, we have heard haha.

October 2012 was when we decided to quit counting, quit tracking quit worrying and wondering what was going to happen. We always thought we wanted to have kids and adopt kids. In that order. And in 2012 we realized that wasn't the case. Literally, as soon as we made the decision, an overwhelming PEACE surrounded me. Like that feeling of knowing when you are doing something right. That feeling has never left. This my friends is why we know we have been called to adopt. This journey may not be the normal route but it is the natural route for us. Our Call is to Adopt. This call does not mean we will not have biological children, because we do plan on having them. We just know alongside that we are meant to give children the opportunity of an amazing future and loving home they may not have otherwise been given if it weren't for adoption.

Thank you again and always for sharing in this journey with us. Thank you for listening to our hearts.

Throughout our posts we will be answering questions that many of you may be wondering. We hope to help those looking into adoption and wondering where to begin. We are not experts but I think we can help! Please ask any questions you may have by commenting.

Blessings,

~Amanda